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The actual time of the Equinox was 1.05 , early morning of Wednesday 23rd here in the UK. Later in the day, after sleeping, I experienced the following.
I watched internally as images of my mother and father danced around a caduceus that spiralled upward. As I watched, these images collapsed. I was aware they represented the distorted masculine and feminine. These were my internal images. My parents played those roles well for me, but have been dead for some time now.
The caduceus danced like a flame playing up my spine, and I heard, “The battle is over.”
I grew up in what felt like a battleground, watching the fights between my parents. Obviously this was their suff playing out, but it was mine too. Years later, long after they left the body, they showed me how they agreed to reflect my beliefs about the masculine and feminine back to me, so I would understand what I held to be true. They externalised my inner beliefs for me. The masculine violently suppressed the feminine.
On the day of the Equinox, this seemed to dissolve. As those images collapsed within me, and the caduceus danced higher, I experienced a major expansion of the central column and a dissolving of tensions from many points in my system. I sat in that space for some time. Feeling what I would call Presence. It simply was, emanating from deep within. It was my essence, radiating calmly, beautifully, powerfully through my body and out, all around. Soft but strong.
It was familiar. I have experienced this before, but not in this way, for this length of time. As it radiated, more “stuff” came up for clearance, and let go easily. There was nothing to do other than be in this Presence, be with it.
It felt totally appropriate to experience this on the day of the Equinox. The point of balance, when light and dark are equal across the planet. As above so below. As within so without.
Since then, a deeper collapse has continued. It’s as if all that was built upon those distorted images, ideas, understandings must now fall away. That sense of presence is more available, sometimes emerging from within to take me by surprise. I have spent time sitting in this presence. Accepting it. Being it. It’s not plain sailing. My state dictates its availability. A strong backlash of doubt and the inner critic rose up. Unworthiness was strong for some days. All the usual stuff.
What is clear is that as we let go of distortion, truth can emerge. Will emerge. Everything else must go. This Presence that we all are, wants to be present! Wants to be embodied.
In this gathering, we will set the field and create a space for the dissolution of any distortions we are holding in our inner masculine and feminine templates. This is what the Equinox signalled. The availability of true inner balance. The Vertical power current, sushumna, running through the mid line of the body, serves as this point of balance. It also seems to be where Presence emerges from.
Using the heart as access point, we will dive into this place, deep within and see what wants to emerge. Where we are at in our state of balance. This will be different for everyone.
As always, much assistance and support will be given to help us move forward. Clearing what is ready to let go, and probably some of what isn’t quite willing too. Deepening the point of balance, and simply allowing old patterns to flow away. Sensing the availability of Presence within each of us.
This isn’t something that needs us to be healed, perfected in order to emerge. Presence is always present. Often we are not. We get caught up in distractions and confusions. We will give time and space to the emergence of this from deep inside, inviting it to permeate our being, saturate our cells.
Gathering in a supporting field of energy, as a group with the same focused intention will amplify the effect, perhaps make it easier for us to drop into this state. Enough work has been done collectively for many to experience this for themselves. It longs to be known. Often we overlook what is closest to us.
We will begin with that inner dance, allowing our internalised images of masculine and feminine, any distortions we hold, to come to rest and dissolve. This in itself will be an immensely healing and freeing experience. We will invite the caduceus within, the ida and pingala channels, masculine and feminine flows of creation within each of us, to flow freely. Then, we will sit within the central column inviting that to express itself through us.
In the one to one work I offer, it becomes apparent that this is what wants to unveil itself more and more. There is a shift away, not complete by any means, but certainly noticeable, from healing wounds, to this embodiment of essence, or Presence. It emerges easily as we turn inwards and allow it to be.
If any of this resonates, please join me for this lovely energetic exploration .
