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Mars and Venus have been playing out a triple conjunction over the 7th-9th January. I hadn’t really paid much attention to this, though I knew it was happening.
On 8th January, in the afternoon, I started to get cold. Really cold. Shivery cold. I had a fire burning. The heating was on, I wrapped up in a blanket. Couldn’t get warm. I ached and felt wiped out. Maybe I’m coming down with a flu or something I thought. As I lay on the sofa, I was aware that the cold emanated from inside me, and was very deep. Layers and layers of frozen energy were opening up. I could see and feel that this was an energetic thing too, so I surrendered to the process.
A hot sweaty night followed, and I woke feeling a groggy and tired. After walking the dog, I sat to meditate, and as soon as I closed my eyes, I was in a childhood scene. My mother and father arguing viciously. There was a lot of this. Their drunken fights often became physical. As a young child I was terrified my mother would die at the hands of my father.
I momentarily experienced the fear and panic of myself in childhood, and recognise a decision I made. That my job was to keep them apart. That was the safest option for everyone.This decision was made in the sacral centre, deep in the pelvis.
I didn’t succeed. They continued to fight, through as I got older and stronger I was able sometimes to come between them.
Internally though, I think that’s exactly what I did. I had decided that the masculine and feminine were not safe together. I split them as much as I could, and lived that process.
I know that this is a collective belief and decision. One made long, long ago. We have been living its consequences for thousands of years. Yesterday, I was aware all through the day that this ancient decision was unravelling in me. I was still feeling way less than 100%, but knew it was a very significant clearing process. I also knew that it was astrologically influenced. What i was experiencing was not just a personal clearing but something collective.
As I got into bed last night, I saw an image of a glowing ball of energy in my pelvis. I knew immediately that I was being asked to receive this. I sat in the darkness and energy poured in, filling my pelvis in a way I hadn’t felt before. I think because for the first time, I was empty of the belief that the masculine and feminine polarities are not safe together.
More and more energy flowed in. When it came time to sleep, that wasn’t possible for me. My mind wasn’t active, and I didn’t have electricity flowing through me as happens with solar flares. I just didn’t sleep.
I know this is an alchemical process. The masculine and feminine principals of creation, coming together in the pelvis, right at the beginning of the year is a powerful and beautiful signal of what 2026 offers. A new level of inner harmony and balance is being birthed. A new level of creativity is on offer. In us and through us.
There is much more to this that I haven’t yet understood. I still haven’t looked at any astrology videos to see what is being said there. I will, and will write more tomorrow.
This is what we are working with for our first event of the year. The inner alchemy we are working with is hotting up. We are being guided, step by step through a process that is both cosmic and deeply personal. One that brings our life into balance with creative principals of the universe. I don’t see where it goes. It’s a step by step unfolding. I am excited by the progress we are being shown.
