Description
The actual time of the Equinox was 1.05 , early morning of Wednesday 23rd here in the UK. Later in the day, after sleeping, I experienced the following. I watched internally as images of my mother and father danced around a caduceus that spiralled upward. As I watched, these images collapsed. I was aware they represented the distorted masculine and feminine. These were my internal images. My parents played those roles well for me, but have been dead for some time now.
The caduceus danced like a flame playing up my spine, and I heard, “The battle is over.”
I grew up in what felt like a battleground, watching the fights between my parents. Obviously this was their suff playing out, but it was mine too. Years later, long after they left the body, they showed me how they agreed to reflect my beliefs about the masculine and feminine back to me, so I would understand what I held to be true. They externalised my inner beliefs for me.
On the day of the Equinox, this seemed to dissolve. As those images collapsed within me, and the caduceus danced higher, I experienced a major expansion of the central column and a dissolving of tensions from many points in my system. I sat in that space for some time. Feeling what I would call Presence. It simply was, emanating from deep within. It was my essence, radiating calmly, beautifully, powerfully through my body and out, all around. Soft but strong.
It was familiar. I have experienced this before, but not in this way, for this length of time. As it radiated, more “stuff” came up for clearance, and let go easily. There was nothing to do other than be in this Presence, be with it.
It felt totally appropriate to experience this on the day of the Equinox. The point of balance, when light and dark are equal across the planet. As above so below. As within so without.
Since then, I have spent much time sitting in this presence. Accepting it. Sometimes it feels a little out of reach. Other times it is right there. It’s not been plain sailing. A strong backlash of doubt and the inner critic rose up. Unworthiness was strong for some days.
What is clear is that Presence wants to be embodied. It is embodiment. It wants to be shared in us and through us.
In this event, we will set the field and create a space for the Presence to unveil itself for and in each of us. This is not something that can be given. I certainly can’t initiate anyone into this, but I am told we are ready for this to unveil itself within us. Gathering in a supporting field of energy, as a group with the same focused intention will amplify the effect, perhaps make it easier for us to drop into this state. Apparently, enough work has been done collectively for many to experience this for themselves.
We will begin with that inner dance, allowing our internalised images of masculine and feminine, any distortions we hold, to come to rest and dissolve. This in itself will be an immensely healing and freeing experience. We will invite the caduceus within, the ida and pingala channels, masculine and feminine flows of creation within each of us, to flow freely. Then, we will sit within the central column inviting that to express itself through us.
Our Eternal Essence.
In the one to one work I offer, it becomes apparent that this is what wants to unveil itself more and more. There is a shift away, not complete by any means, but certainly noticeable, from healing wounds, to this embodiment of essence, or Presence. It emerges easily as we turn inwards and allow it to be.
It is always present. Easy to overlook. Particularly when much of our inner space seems filled with our pains and ills, complaints, insecurities and opinions. This Presence is always present.
It is time for us collectively to drop deeper than we are usually focused. As always there is much energetic support for this. We will be fully assisted and held through this process and each will experience exactly what they are able to. What they are ready for.
