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A little story for you.
Back in the early 200’s, I was dealing with liver cancer. It was a profound experience, one with many beautiful moments. One of these keeps surfacing in awareness. I was having heavy duty chemo. Many doctors and nurses had told me how toxic it was. I was given a long list of side effects that could happen, and was told by one of my team of specialists, “It’s about how ill we can make you in order to make you well.”
As the chemo proceeded, I was producing all of the side effects. My hair fell out. My blood counts were decimated, I needed blood transfusions, ulcers and sores appeared. I was in a very sorry state.
It was maybe the third or fourth round of chemo. I was waiting for the drugs to arrive from another part of the hospital. There was a hold up, so I had a long time to wait. Sitting there, I asked internally, “Is there something I can do to help my body experience the chemo in a better way?”
Bang! As soon as the question was asked a download of information and energy began. I was given a colour to work with, to help the chemo wash through my system with more ease. I was also told that I needed to dismantle every negative thing I had been told about the drug. All of the ways I believed it was a poison that was going to harm me. All of the fear I had built up in my own mind around this treatment. I had to dissolve it. Instead, I was told to hold fast to the understanding that this drug was designed and produced, by well meaning scientists, with the highest of intentions and it was created to make me well, not to make me ill.
In the couple of hours I had to wait, i worked with the colour, washing it through my cells. I worked with my belief systems and fears, attempting to dismantle them all. When the chemo arrives, two bags of liquid to be poured into my veins, i wanted to hold it and bless it, but didn’t get the chance. I sat across the room, and decided to focus light into it. As I closed my eyes, I saw a large angel holding the liquids in its hands. He was so large his upper body wasn’t even in the room.
All of the side effects I was experiencing cleared up. I understood at a profound level, the power of our mind to focus and create outcomes.
When I ask why those story is coming to mind now, I am reminded of the phenomenal power of choice and surrender. Holding any resistance to the journey we are on creates disturbance and distortion. Enormous ripples that become challenging to navigate.
We are in an extraordinary process of deepest dismantling. This is ongoing and now working at very subtle levels. Identity structures I didn’t know I held are coming into awareness. Dreams, fantasies and desires about who, what or how I could be are dissolving. Everything is being stripped down. Sometimes I find myself wrapped fear, and I am aware there is so much encouragement to amplify our fears.
War, lack, poverty, destruction, pollution, climate disaster, famine, corruption. If you look at the news it is overwhelmingly scary. If you look at the world, it appears that all is hopeless.
Look beyond.
It’s important to remember why we came. That we came to be dismantled and be a part of the dismantling of the old world. So important to hold to the understanding that everything happening is happening for me. It is not designed to pull me under, but to help me float and indeed surf. It is our illusions that are being dismantled not our Truth. That is being revealed and strengthened.
We are at a point where we have to be willing to let everything go. All that we hoped and dreamt of. All we longed for. Nobody knows how this is gong to play out over the next year, or three years, or five years. It certainly isn’t playing out in the way that I thought it might. Twenty years ago, I thought we would be in the Golden Age now, living it.
If I hold onto longings and ideas of howI think it should be, these have to be dismantled too, so that truth can emerge.
My guidance tells me to hold tight to what I know to be true, not my illusions. Don’t live from fear. Spend time every morning anchoring its what it is you want to be living, to what it is you know that holds you. Open your heart even when it feels impossible. That simple act shifts your whole energy field into a different resonance, and so attracts a different set of circumstances. It also allows a much swifter falling away of the old energies we are shedding.
I know that living from fear creates an experience, even at a physiological level, that is harsh, and exhausting. adrenaline and cortisol are exhausting to spin for days on end.
Ancient levels of collective conditioning and experience are being unearthed by the cosmic energies working with us. That is happening in and around us. If we hold fear and resistance to the process, it gives those energies, which are working for us, a much harder job. They reverberate through our system with more jangling and sharpness.
It can be useful to surrender.
We don’t know. We don’t have the answers. Surrendering allows these powerful cosmic energies a deeper penetration, a smoother ride. We are being disillusioned. Our Illusions are being di-spelled. The spell we have been under is falling away. There is nothing to cling to. All that we need is already there. Underneath the illusions. This can be a celebration, for it is a liberation.
We will get through this. Not in the same configuration we currently hold. Surrender to that. Each step of the way, guidance is there. Only for the next step, not the next ten years. Just the next step. Surrender is not giving up or giving in. it is trusting the Divine Order of things, that there is a Grand Purpose to all that we are experiencing. it is both personal and collective That Divine Order knows exactly what our personal needs are as well as the bigger picture. All is held. Everyone is held. That is what we surrender to.
The path ahead is not yet clear. It’s going to be intense. Between now and the December Solstice a lot will happen. Revelations, destructions, up-levelling. We always have the amazing power of choice at our disposal We can choose what we focus awareness on, both internally and externally. That power of choice is a miraculous thing. It can totally shift our experience.
In this gathering, we will work with surrender. We will invite it in to the deepest part of ourselves. We will invite it in to the identities we hold in the recesses of our being. The subtle paces, hidden that are now being exposed. This surrender is light. Love. We simply invite it in, allow ourselves to be penetrated to our core if possible, so that truth can reign, rather than the illusions we have wrapped ourselves.
We will also work with the power of choice, and its ability to completely alter the experience we live. Our focus becomes our reality. Aligning with these things is simple, and changes everything. Practice makes it inevitable.
